Today, I’m joining the Five Minute Friday writers around the world, writing in response to Kate Motaung’s prompt: heal.
“They all ate and were satisfied.” Mark 6: 42 (NIV)
I have sat with this verse for a long time, after God called me there. And what I see is this: where we ingest and digest the food Jesus gives us, we are “satisfied”. In John 6: (35-40) MSG:
“Jesus said, “I am the Bread of Life. The person who aligns with me hungers no more and thirsts no more, ever.”
Our satisfaction and contentment require us to both ingest (read the Word of God and listen to the promptings of the Spirit) and digest (allow the Word of God become a part of us, to determine how we think, act and speak). Here I need to consider in what areas of my life there is dissatisfaction/discontentment, for these are the parts of my life and heart I have not both ingested and digested the Bread of Life to bring the healing and wholeness my heart so craves:
Jeremiah 17: 9 – 10 MSG
“The heart is hopelessly dark and deceitful,
a puzzle that no one can figure out.
But I, God, search the heart
and examine the mind.
I get to the heart of the human.
I get to the root of things.
I treat them as they really are,
not as they pretend to be.”
Psalm 139: 24 ESV
Search me, O God, and know my heart!
Try me and know my thoughts!
And see if there be any grievous way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting!
Healing, He tells us, comes through confession led by the conviction of His Word and Spirit. More often than not we are blinded to the sin that keeps us in chains because at its root lies a diseased and deceitful heart from the trauma of sin that so desperately needs to be opened so that He may heal what has been broken. We hurt or cower in fear, we hold on or repress, we become angry, impatience begins to sabotage our intentions to keep calm and kind.
Isaiah 30: 18 AMP
Therefore the Lord waits [expectantly] and longs to be gracious to you,
And therefore He waits on high to have compassion on you.
[a]For the Lord is a God of justice;
Blessed (happy, fortunate) are all those who long for Him [since He will never fail them].
Be encouraged, fellow sojourner toward heaven, the burden of our diseased and traumatized heart is exactly why Jesus has come. He’s come for us, the sick and hurting, who acknowledge their desperate need for His healing touch.
Teach me your way, O LORD, and I will walk in your truth; give me an undivided heart, that I may fear your name.
In making this verse my repeated prayer throughout my day, God has been opening my own heart to see the truth of, feel the sting of and confess my hidden sins…but oh the freedom in doing so. My burden is being lightened and my home brightened:
Blessed is the man whose sin the LORD does not count against him and in whose spirit is no deceit.
These sins, without me even realizing it, have been not only hurting me, but also contributing to the sinful responses of my children. Where I choose NOT to surrender to God’s calling to keep casting my burdens on Him, to rest in the truth of His love for me and my children, and to take each lying thought captive and bend it to His truth, then my mouth speaks what my diseased heart is full of:
Luke 6: 45 NIV
A good man brings good things out of the good stored up in his heart, and an evil man brings evil things out of the evil stored up in his heart. For the mouth speaks what the heart is full of.
Disease infects and spreads, if we permit it to.
Romans 2: 3 – 4 (NIV)
So when you, a mere human being, pass judgment on them and yet do the same things, do you think you will escape God’s judgment? Or do you show contempt for the riches of his kindness, forbearance and patience, not realizing that God’s kindness is intended to lead you to repentance?
So, let us not bind up our children’s hearts with our own folly, believing that we are completely transformed in heart and mind, but keep turning ourselves and them over to God’s cutting conviction and His beautiful healing grace, rather than our punitive and prideful actions, words and tone.
And let us be sure to guard the freeing truth God is rooting in their and our own hearts, by continually pouring His Word into and over ourselves and our families, from morning till late.